I Just Can’t

Some days I get to a point where I just can’t. I can’t quiet all the thoughts, I can’t quiet all the things that are clamoring for my attention, I can’t adult anymore. I have been in that space for a few days this week. I am not worrying about anything it’s just gotten to be a bit too much.

I think these are the times that I know I have strayed the furthest from scripture. I haven’t picked up my Bible in a few days, and it’s showing in the wear and tear of my soul.  So where should I spend my time today? I am not one who can just open a book and start studying unless I have a purpose and an outline (yes I am in a few Bible classes just because of this quirk of mine). I tend to bounce around according to the mood I am in.

My moods have lately been a bit darker than normal, so maybe Job would be a good place to start today? Not because I can wallow, but because I can see that no matter how cruddy I feel, there truly has been someone else who has suffered significantly more. Maybe I should look into an epistle by Paul. He was a pretty straight shooter and while he believed with all his heart that Jesus was all we needed, he believed that action is also needed on our part, not just sitting on our laurels and expecting it to be done for us. Maybe a good gut wrenching Psalm by David. Nah, my nose is already stuffed up from allergies. Maybe today is just a good day to start at the beginning…

“In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth. The earth was formless and void, and darkness was over the surface of the deep, and the Spirit of God was moving over the surface of the waters. Then God said, “Let there be light”; and there was light. God saw that the light was good; and God separated the light from the darkness.” It might help chase the darkness of my mood away.